When someone tells me to “Act normal” and “Be myself”
Somewhere along the way, I forgot what it meant to be a fan. It’s easy to do…There can be entitled stars, demanding managers and snarky assistants. (And also ridiculously talented stars, passionate managers and thrilled-to-be-there assistants. ;)) But it’s easy to get sucked into a world where you can’t see the end of the tunnel. Where you forget why you geeked out about the job to begin with.
It really is about the spectacle of it all. And it’s incredible. There’s nothing better than sitting in the back of a church, watching 100 middle school girls fall in love with a 14 year old boy with a guitar that they’ve never heard of…And then seeing him onstage in front of thousands of screaming girls 18 months later and totally owning it.
There’s nothing like meeting fresh faced girls who just got cast in the “next big thing” show at a photoshoot and seeing them so excited and so completely overwhelmed in the best way by their experience. And then seeing them completely overwhelmed a few months later, on the day after their show premiered to millions of viewers and watching them being asked to sign their first autograph. And seeing their faces light up. And then seeing them completely overwhelmed a few months later again, when they do a major event at a major mall in a major city and watching their dreams come true by making the dreams of thousands of girls in the audience come true.
It’s those dreams that matter. The audience’s. Everyone has such a hard life, for their own reasons. Some of them are bullied. Some bully because they are too insecure to do anything else. Some are unattractive, or think they are. Some give off the illusion of overconfidence to cover up what’s really going on inside.
It doesn’t stop at middle school either. Maybe in high school you start to find a sense of yourself, but that can be just as scary. What if how you are isn’t what you wanted? What if your dreams feel impossible?
And so on and so forth.
And that’s when what we do matters. In its own small, little way. Entertainment is an escape, or a soundtrack, or a dream. It allows people who are tired or beaten down or feeling hopeless to realize you can have hope, and that dreams can come true…Even if only in a make believe world. It helps people feel better. Inspires them to make a change. Or it’s just a lonely companion when someone needs it.
It’s such a cliche to say that music saved your life. But it’s true. It does. When everything else is totally fucked up, it’s there. There are people who say rockstars don’t deserve the attention that they get. That the accolades should go to doctors and teachers and other people doing “important” things. And maybe it should. But rockstars are doing something important too - They’re helping people remember their dreams.
And I want to be a part of that. Fuck everything else.